22.2.12

WHY???

Today is a sad day. Because I lost my Supervisorship. I'm not an Herbalife Supervisor anymore. I'm just a Sr Consultant. Just because I FAILED to earn enough points last year. WHY GOD???

I need the 50% discount because I need to fend of the evil drugs that I am taking for my bipolar from turning me into a big balloon. But I thunk that YOU just do not care isn't it? Even with 50%, it's difficult for me to maintain. Now with 35%?? Ridiculous! I am such A LOSER. The more I think about my life, the more I HATE it. NOTHING seems to work in my life. NOTHING! ZILCH! NADA!!!

What the fuck is happening?? I couldn't continue living because my life IS A MESS. A TOTAL MESS. A PATHETIC MESS. I'm fed up of living. Fed up of facing the same joke of a life day in and day oiut. I am just tired of this horrible existence. What a tragic life. And I am sure, when I die, it'd be tragic too. In the hereafter, I'd be faced with a much severe sentence. For the monster I am on earth and for the unappreciative fool I am born to be.

Just WHY CAN'T I LEAD A NORMAL LIFE??? GOD??? WHERE ARE YOU??? AREN'T YOU GOIN' TO ANSWER ME????



3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry. And no, I can't understand God sometimes. It seems so unfair, so downright cruel. Still, all I can offer you and will always offer are my prayers and love to a little brother. saras

bibliobibuli said...

Hasnul, in mine too. And this seems a fair unfair system of selling. Don't victimise yourself for Harbalife's unfair methods of marketing. You are a very creative person.

hasnul8286 said...

Dear bibliobubilli,
I don't criticized the system as I had known it when I signed up. I still believe in it. It's just that WHY can't I work for it? My less than ideal (very much less) condition has made it so very very difficult... In life. Not just in herbalife. Why can't I be a stable person like everyone else?