If asked to explain what I'm feeling right now, I can say that it's a complete chaos. I'm feeling everything. One after another. Hate, love, frustration, amazement, lost, anger... all mixed up and interchangeable.

I seldom feel this way. Only lately, this unexplainable kind of feeling, tends to overwhelm me. It's sadistic to the core as I'm at total lost of who I am. It seems that I'm losing my identity. I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't know why I'm here. And I don't know what I should do.

I loathe this feelings. This feeling of uneasiness. Of uncertainty. Of total confusion. I hate myself for feeling this way. And I hate myself more for not being able to control it.

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